John McKenzie wrote:
> Feral Al wrote:
>> John McKenzie wrote:
>>> Feral Al wrote:
>>>> C'mon now, let's be honest Nod. Early, peer/family induced
>>>> "use of", leads to habit, then addiction, which is not a
>>>> conscious choice. IMHO anyway.
>>> funny, because I had a **** home life, and massive boozers (etc) in
the
>>> family, and didn't follow suit. I do eat way too ****en much, but
that's
>>> not hurting anyone else.
>> OK John, we all know about your **** of a life, but were you
>> sitting around with them, day after day, week after week,
>> sniffing and drinking with them.
>
> well lets see, I was even bashed for being too wimpy to smoke
> cigarettes, I was abused for crying out in pain when my knee was
> dislocated, I was beaten for pleading with a relative to call the
> police, I have a jaw which dislocates every time I eat as a result of
> the damage, I had my bedroom window frames drilled and bolted shut so I
> couldn't even open the window to let some fresh air in (coming home from
> school, you couldn't see from one side of the lounge to the other for
> smoke). I had ****s pick up the phone when I was ringing trying to get
> job interviews and badmouthing me for amusement. I was deliberately
> exposed to extreme amounts of asbestos 'for a laugh' - so YES. and not
> ONE sympathetic ear in the lot. Understand this, I'm not a success
> story, and never likely will be, but I'll at least go out with some
> pride intact, knowing they couldn't make me give in to it all. I still
> have major nightmares, and I've punched and kicked an airconditioner out
> of the wall in my sleep (damage to extremities included). I sometimes
> wake up in a cold sweat. It's not fun, but I don't take it out on anyone
> else (well except the perpetrators, I waged my own little war there - I
> also intervened with a cousins kids, threatening them big time - the
> basic spiel being 'you keep treating your kids like I was, they'll turn
> out like me' and then when that didn't work 'keep it up and I'll drive
> your ****en head through a brick wall. If they had have stood their
> ground and been aggressive toward me, then I would have thought
> differently - after all they believed in it, to their own peril, but
> they immediately stopped after the threats (and risk of them being
> carried out) was imminent. Meaning they didn't think what they were
> doing was right, they were just cowardly bullies picking on the ones who
> they should be protecting.
>
> At a certain point we have to stop thinking that bad people are just
> good people who have lost their way. Sure some are, but let's not be too
> bloody quick to forgive.
>
> **** I didn't even start on all the educational op****tunities I missed
> out on (I still got some, but they were my own doing, and I had to fight
> major wars to get em)
>
> I mean seriously - it's so harsh the 'meaty' details are just hard to
> even begin to discuss. When someone says happy birthday to me, I can
> usually put a brave face on it, but if only I could tell people some of
> the things that were done to me on my birthday, and specifically the
> methodical abuse that was done intentionally (and brutally and
> relentlessly) to ensure I'd never enjoy a birthday ever after. You just
> can't explain that to someone else for whom there's at least some
> modi*** of a good experience on one or two of their own. Sure I could
> 'reclaim' the day as my own, and I've tried to with varying success.
>
> But again, through it all, I've not taken it out on anyone else. Having
> said all that, if I see _anyone_ doing their best to stand tall
> (successfully or something short of it) they'll get my sup****t, pretty
> much unconditionally. But who is kidding who - 'sorry' isn't helping
> anyone but a bunch of whiter than casper the ghost wankers who have long
> learnt that an elaborate whinge gets them access to the govco/taxpayers
> teat. A prime example is a local (more to me than to you) aboriginal
> activist who is clearly a bloody gang rapist, and deserves to die. He's
> whiter than 10 blokes named sven, an all round ****, but he's gotten the
> loot more than once.
And none of that John, exactly fkn none, has anything to do
with my original statement at the very top relating to induced
child *drug* abuse.
You have used my statement to *vent*.
There is a time and a place, you chose poorly in this case IMO.
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Take Care. ~~
Feral Al ( @[EMAIL PROTECTED]
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